touch math and story writer

Blech. It's like an hour after I wrote that bellyaching post and I'm thinking man, am I a big baby or what? Lots of people don't have a dryer or a car or a furnace, so shut up already. I guess that's why we write these things down, to free our minds of them and move on.

So, on to something else I've been wanting to share. I mentioned earlier in the fall that Henry was having trouble with math. So his teacher has started "touch math" with him. This is what it looks like:

(I'm sure I'll do a terrible job of trying to explain it in writing, but here goes...) As we know, each numeral represents a quantity of a thing. Some kids seem to have trouble grasping this concept, so touch math puts dots (and circles) on the numeral to try to bring this point home. In the beginning they use the dots and physically tap on them with their fingers. Over time, the concept just becomes memorized, so that a numeral 4= 4 dots/4 things.

It sounds like Henry is making good progress so far using this technique. She plans to send home some touchmath homework next week, so I'll be able to see firsthand.

Another tool they've been using at school is a computer program to encourage Henry's writing. I believe it's called story writer. (I can get more info from his teacher if anyone would like- a quick google search didn't bring up a good link). Although Henry looooves to read, he does not like to write. I was amazed when I started seeing papers like this in his backpack:

At our parent/teacher conference, Mrs. C showed me how it works. You type in the first letter of the word (W, for example) and several word options pop up for you to choose from (they might be watch, walk, went, work). Then you take your cursor and click on the word you choose.

Right now Mrs. C and Henry write his stories together. She does most of the typing and he selects the words. I'm sure she prompts him a bit on what to write as well. But we hope that before long he'll be using the program on his own and writing longer stories.

(This story is one of my favorites because you might remember that it rained when they went to the football game and they left quite early. I knew Henry would remember it with rose-colored glasses!)

hop on board the roller coaster

Oh, it's just all up and down over here. I don't know which end is up from one minute to another.
First of all, I want to thank all of you who left comments on my couple previous posts. I am really bad about responding to comments, and I apologize. But I do so appreciate everyone's input. Keep it coming!

Today I wanted to share something exciting. Henry appeared in his first school performance! His teacher just told me the night before, in the communication notebook, that he would be singing a song with the second-graders on stage. At first I was just going to ask her to take a picture for me, but then I wondered "what am I thinking? My son has never before performed on a stage. I can't miss this." So I called in to work and said I'd be late, took Tommy to preschool, picked Bill up from work, and we went to watch the "Charity Newsies Assembly" at the elementary school.

Henry sat in the audience next to his aide and watched the first graders perform. Then he filed onstage with the second graders, seemingly unfazed by all the commotion. He went promptly to his designated spot: (The photos I took are ridiculously dark, but he's basically in the center of this one, wearing a dark green sweater with a white snowflake-pattern stripe across the chest)

I saw him looking around, and that mom instinct in me took hold and I started waving like an idiot. I hadn't told him I was coming, and neither had his teachers. I could, and should, have stayed out of sight, but my excitement and pride just possessed me.

He saw me and got really excited, and started calling for me to come over, and to come up on the stage. I was worried that I had screwed everything up by letting him know we were there!

But he ended up participating just fine. He was over at the edge of the group instead of right in the middle where he was supposed to be, but no one cared.

They sang America the Beautiful, with accompanying hand motions. Henry had learned the whole thing and did it right along with the rest of the group. (Normally this is definitely the kind of thing that would make me cry, but I was too excited to cry this time.) Then they recited a little poem about birds on Farmer Brown's farm. The kids were divided into 3 groups and each was supposed to be a different bird. Henry's group were Turkeys, who shouted "eat more chicken, eat more chicken, gobble gobble gobble, it's finger lickin'!"

Henry seemed excited and proud, and aside from some hopping up and down and covering his ears, he did everything just as he was supposed to, as far as I could tell.

When the second-graders were finished, they came back to their seats and Henry asked daddy and I to sit with him. Again, I was worried that this would mess everything up. I sat with him for a minute and then Bill did. (At this point the regular-ed second-grade teacher came over and introduced herself to me. She seemed very nice, and resembled Susan Senator, I thought. A good sign!)

I'm not sure what Bill said to Henry, but when he got up to leave, Henry didn't argue. Just waved and said "bye mommy, bye daddy."_______

So there are some good things at school- some very good stuff going on. Despite my rant the other day, I know that his teacher is just trying to work on the thing that is the biggest obstacle right now- the aggression. She replied to my e-mail and said that she knows the medication decision is a very hard one, but she feels that Henry is not able to control his actions at some times. He will continue to be observed by various people, but that's tricky because his behavior is so erratic. I believe that is the reason for the increased info in the communication book- to show us that the behavior is very random.

Drama Mama had a lovely post the other day about remembering how great our kids are. Obviously, it hit home to me with some of the negative things we've been hearing about Henry lately, and made me think about something that happened last weekend:

The boys had a make-up gymnastics class Saturday morning at 9. Because it was a make-up, it was different: different kids, different teachers, different routine, mom and dad both there, Tommy there... So Henry was a bit dysregulated. Kept loudly saying that he didn't want to go. Needed a little urging to participate, but ended up doing fine in the end.

After gymnastics, we decided to go to a nearby greasy spoon for breakfast. The place is small and was crowded (one of those places that was built like in the 50s and people were smaller then- I felt like a family of giants walking in there). Henry had brought in some of his papers and was talking loudly about them. The only seat was at the bar. Initially the boys sat between us, but then started messing with each other, so Henry and I switched places. Then a booth opened up and we moved over there.

Henry ordered (for himself) blueberry pancakes, sausage and bacon and orange juice. He proceeded to eat it all with his fingers. An old man walked past our table, to pay his bill. He stopped in front of us, smiled, and said "that's 2 good looking kids you've got there."

I smiled, said thank you, and then my eyes filled with tears. I didn't even realize, until that comment, all the baggage I was carrying around. How much I was worrying about whether Henry was bothering people, or what people might be thinking about an 8-year-old eating with his fingers. It's like a rucksack that I've been carrying for so long, I don't even notice it anymore.

With his one kind comment, that man made me realize that not everyone is judging me or my family. That not only do I think my kids are great, lots of other people do too.

Happy thanksgiving my friends and family, and thanks for reading. I'm more thankful for all of you every year!

good things and waxing nostalgic

The same way that the little stuff can really get you down sometimes, some days the little stuff can really give me a lift. Yesterday I almost squealed when I noticed that this cactus in my office was blooming:


And all of a sudden the burning bushes are gloriously red. It's nice how nature works that way- just when the jack-o-lanterns are bringing us down with their moldy collapse (see foreground of the photo), the burning bushes distract us with their beauty:

While I am preoccupied with the needs of my children, my house, my husband and myself, something is trying to make me stop, take a deep breath, and notice the goodness of my life.

Yesterday I called my oldest friend. I haven't seen her in a year and a half, haven't talked to her in almost as long. We do e-mail at least, and she had told me that her 5-year-old daughter would be having her tonsils and adenoids removed yesterday. Finally, that was the impetus I needed to make the call- to make sure that everything had gone ok (it had, of course).

We talked for 45 minutes before I had to go, and it was as if no time had passed since we were high school friends who saw one another every day. She made me laugh until I snorted. We joked that we'd talk again the next time one of our children was knocked out with anesthetic and the other one of us was at work!

Thomas and I have been listening to some classics in the car: the Beach Boys, Eagles, and Beatles. For some reason this is so soothing to me. They are songs that I listened to with my parents, that Bill listened to with Kate, and now to hear Thomas singing along with them is such a comfort.

As the days get shorter and colder, and the to-do lists get longer, as Henry's re-evaluation looms and I have to answer questionnaires about all the things that he doesn't do, I need to find these good things and let them occupy my mind.

question for a weird Friday

Well today was very strange. Both boys were going to be at home today, and Bill had taken the day off to be home with them. We had our parent-teacher conference scheduled for this morning and then I was going to go in to work.

But Bill developed this horrible pain in his left elbow yesterday. He doesn't remember doing anything specific to it, but it suddenly became swollen, red and so painful. He was able to get an appointment with the doctor this afternoon, so I just took the day off also. You'd think it would be a nice day at home for all of us, but it really was a day of running around. That's the way it goes sometimes.

Bill ended up having an infection in his elbow! They had to drain fluid from it, which was very painful. (I'm trying to be as sympathetic as I can, but ladies, you know that I want to say "as painful as delivering a baby? I think not.") So I just finished my antibiotic yesterday, and he started one today!
____________

My question for all of you stems from our parent/teacher conference. Henry is doing quite well academically and in many social situations. He is making progress on all of his IEP goals and doesn't argue with his teachers about everything anymore.

He is, however, aggressive. I hesitate to say that this is a new problem, because it has always been a component of Henry's behavior. The discussion today, though, seemed different. His teacher basically said that Henry's unpredictable aggression is the only thing holding him back from spending most of his day with the regular ed class.

Many of the specialists who work with Henry have never seen this side of him. I can tell that this frustrates his teacher because she needs help in identifying why it happens. Sometimes the adults in the classroom can see the antecedent. But other times, to cite one of her examples, Henry will be reading in one quiet corner. Another child will walk into that corner to get a book, minding his own business. Henry will look up, stick out his leg, and trip the child. Or he will push an unsuspecting child from behind. Or he will unexpectedly scratch or pinch another child in the face.

These actions not always directed at the same person, nor do they always occur in the same situation.

The adults can handle this aggression to a certain degree, when it is directed at them. But Mrs. C. says that Henry often attacks children who cannot defend themselves. (I assume this means nonverbal children- she is always very careful about not naming names.) And her biggest fear is that he will injure one of the regular ed 2nd graders, which could potentially generate a huge political stink, and harm Henry's chances of being accepted in the general ed classroom.

The teachers try different types of reactions to these situations (talking quietly, giving him a big squeeze, threatening the loss of a privilege). Sometimes these attempts work to calm Henry down, sometimes they don't. And at those times, despite his small size, it is a real challenge for the adults to get Henry "off" of the child he has chosen to attack.

(The word attack may sound a little harsh, but the more I hear, the more it sounds like that's what's happening. I don't want to turn a blind eye to my son's bullying.)

The teachers, paras, and therapists seem to generally feel that these actions are almost uncontrollable on Henry's part. We have seen a bit of this behavior at home, but definitely not to the same degree.

I'd love to hear from any of you (either in comments or e-mail me) who have been through this with your child. Henry has never taken any medication, and I am wondering if that is the path that would help him? Bill talked to the pediatrician briefly today, and I will have to get back to you with the name of the medication that they discussed.

I certainly don't want to jump into anything, but I also want to help Henry as soon as I can. I thought about trying to get back in to see the psychs who diagnosed him, but I fear the wait to get in now would be even longer than it was 4 years ago.

Thanks in advance for your help, friends. Have a good weekend!

a couple rough Sunday outings

The Sunday before Halloween, we went to "Boo at the Zoo"- kids wear their costumes and get candy at treat stations. We did this last year and had a fun time. This year a new attraction was added: we bought tickets ahead of time to attend lunch with Spiderman!!

I gave it a bit of forethought, just enough to think "I'll have Bill with me, so if Henry doesn't like it, or gets restless, we can separate and each take a kid." This was not enough forethought.

First, we had to wait in line to get in to the event, then more waiting in line to get our lunch (a turkey sandwich and yogurt or madarin oranges- woo hoo!) Luckily, the boys and I left Bill in line out in the hallway and ducked inside the big meeting room just in time for Spiderman to appear. There were probably 150 people at this event, in a big echo-y room. The Spiderman theme music started, and he ran in and started working the room.

Henry was covering his ears, of course, but was smiling and watching. We were at the less-populated back of the room, but Spiderman made his way over to us and headed right for Henry! He said "How ya doin' buddy?" and held out his hand! I prompted, "Henry, can you shake Spiderman's hand?" and Henry managed to do so, letting go of one ear and pressing it to his shoulder, to free up his hand. "Nice to see ya, Henry" Spiderman said, and then tousled Tommy's hair and kept on moving.

Both boys beamed, ear-to-ear. He really talks! They both exclaimed. I was impressed that Spiderman had singled out the kid covering his ears, and picked up on Henry's name.

A photo with Spiderman was included as part of the ticket price. There was also face-painting available. Henry opted for a bat painted on his hand, which I thought was a good compromise. Spiderman also put on a show about safety.

For this show, he asked for volunteers from the audience- kids to act out scenes about crossing the street and not talking to strangers. I want to go up on stage Henry announced. Bill told him to raise his hand. So there Henry sat, covering his ears and raising his hand at the same time.

And felt so ashamed, but I sat there thinking please don't pick him please don't pick him. Isn't that awful? But I didn't think Henry would know what to do if he was chosen. Maybe he would go up there but then another kid would piss him off and he would pinch that kid, or push him, or scream...

And then Spiderman said "OK, how about this Batman over here?" He was talking about a different Batman, but Henry didn't realize, grinned and stood up. My heart cracked right in two at that moment.

Bill and I talked about it later and we had so many conflicting emotions. Bill pointed out that, a year ago or more, Henry wouldn't have been nearly engaged enough in what was happening to even notice that kids were going up to the stage, much less to want to go up too. He wouldn't have even put it together that Spiderman had chosen Batman to help, and he was dressed as Batman.
But, there were all my worries about could Henry handle it if he actually was chosen. I'm ashamed of that now, because none of the kids really got what they were supposed to do up there- it was actually pretty painful to watch. Henry probably would have done fine.

When the show was over, everyone lined up to get their picture taken with Spiderman. This was so ridiculous. Bill and Henry left to walk around the zoo and then Tommy and I did the same. I realized that I could get back in to the event in about half an hour and see how the line looked at that point. So that's what we did, and it worked out perfectly. This "Spiderman" was so great. He really took time to chat with each kid.

He told Tommy that The Thing is one of his friends, and he would tell The Thing that Tommy said "hi" the next time he saw him. (Of course, this led Tommy to believe that The Real Thing was there at the zoo somewhere, and could we find him?)

Henry had a really rough time for the rest of the zoo visit. I was really caught off-guard because we go to the zoo all the time, and it always goes pretty well. We can only figure that this time was too different: daddy was with us, the Spiderman thing was too exciting, we didn't rent a buggy for them to ride in like we usually do...

This being an autism detective is so hard. You have to re-trace your steps and try to figure out what was it that put Henry over the edge?

He just didn't really want to look at anything, or didn't want to stop looking at certain things. This is where I wonder if the buggy facilitates more than I realize. Maybe hopping in the buggy and looking at his zoo map is an important calm transition time between exhibits?
We did have a nice ride on the boats:
And these otters were one attraction that he loved.

But we eventually had to drag him away from them.

If you had been at the zoo that day, here's what you would have seen. Us dragging Henry/Batman behind us while he complained.

I just hate days like this. I feel bad for Henry that he is so dysregulated. Out of whack is the term I used that day. But I also feel bad for Tommy that his holiday outing is messed up too because Henry is out of whack.

The other rough Sunday outing happened this past weekend. Kate and I took the boys to the rec center pool at the University where I work. (Yes, I was quite pleasantly surprised that Kate wanted to come along!) This pool is sooooo fun for kids- we all had a great time.

But then it was time to leave.

And Henry didn't want to leave.

We haven't had a scene like this in quite awhile. So long, in fact, that I'm sure the last time it happened I was able to just carry Henry out of wherever we were. But we can't carry him anymore.

Poor Kate bore the brunt of it, as I was carrying most of our stuff and the little brother wanted to hold my hand. Henry pinched her and pinched her, and kept shouting all the scripted angry lines he could think of:

Are you crazy?

You ran out on me, and I took the blame!

You won't believe me anyway!
It's kind of humorous now, to think about a little 8-year-old shouting You ran out on me, and I took the blame! But it definitely wasn't humorous at the time. Definitely not for the big sister or the little brother. I do the best I can to thank Tommy for being a "good listener" and to explain that Henry has a hard time understanding things, even though he's older, and that that's why Henry gets extra grumpy sometimes. But it just stinks. For Henry too. I wish these transitions didn't have to be so so so so hard for him.

And I started thinking how long until he learns some really mean, foul things to say when he's angry? Then we'll be dragging him through an echoing rec center while he shouts obscenities. It's bound to happen.

As I was telling a friend about the weekend, and about how Henry slept in so late on Saturday, and about how he tripped going up the steps to the bus, she commented that maybe he is growing. I wonder if it could be as simple as that? I hope. I hope.

halloween 2007

Wasn't it weird to be trick-or-treating in broad daylight this year? We made it all the way up our street and back down the other side, so we could enjoy all the spooky lights in darkness by the time we got home, at least.

I only took one picture this year, and didn't feel all giddy like I have on other Halloweens. I don't mean that we didn't have fun, au contraire. It's just that our fun was comfortable and expected. The same fun any old family has on Halloween. As I read others' blogs, I remember the years that Henry didn't get it. And the years that HE FINALLY GOT IT and I was so excited. (Remember the year that I embarrassed him?)
And then there was last year, when I had the biggest fright of my life.

This year was pretty much just a standard Halloween. Everyone loved Henry's costume. So many people sang the nananananananana-Batman! song when they saw him coming, and Henry would cover his ears.

Tommy was The Thing, from the Fantastic Four. The Fantastic Four seem to be a lesser-known gang of super heroes, to the parental generation anyway, so most people didn't know who he was (especially without his mask, which he did not want to wear.) But Tommy was ok with that- most people at least commented on his big strong muscles.

I was pissed off by the one house that was scaring kids. There was a person wearing a scary mask handing out candy, and as the kids walked up the walk another person would release this skeleton bat thing and have it swoop out at the kids. We had seen it, and warned Henry. He wasn't scared at all by the bat, but did need encouragement to keep on walking up to the scary (guy? girl? I don't know) handing out the candy. As he reached the first step, the second person released smoke from a smoke machine right into Henry's face. Well, he didn't like that, and refused to go up any further.

Of course, they'd have no way of knowing my son was autistic, but nonetheless I think they should have saved that scary stuff for the older kids. Henry is 8, but looks like he's about 6, and of course Tommy is even littler. Henry doesn't get scared too easily, and he didn't cry or anything. But as we came back down the other side of the street, he kept a wary eye on that house, and kept repeating "we already went to that house with the skeleton guy. We already went to that house."

Henry was so excited about the other kids' costumes- it was hilarious. He would exclaim over every costume he saw, and point (sometimes inappropriately) right at the child. "There's supergirl! There's Mr. Incredible!" The funniest thing was when a favorite-costumed child (like supergirl) would fall into step behind us. Henry would come back down every walk, saying "Thank you, Happy Halloween" and then shriek "there's supergirl!" Right- you already pointed her out at the last 3 houses!

One of Henry's favorite things to ask is "what's your favorite holiday?" and then "what's your second favorite holiday?" I always answer Christmas first, but I'll tell you- the longer I'm a mom, the more Halloween is sneaking up on that favorite spot.

move over Abbott and Costello

double standard

This photo is currently my computer desktop background- it's from our visit to the zoo last weekend. It says a lot about my sons: Thomas is wearing a Batman pajama shirt backwards on purpose and Henry is holding his Big Cats Zoobook.

My boss commented today on the picture and asked about Henry's magazine. As usual, I launched into a longer-than-necessary explanation.

You see, Big Cats is one of Henry's very favorite Zoobooks. Because he carries his very favorite things with him to school, the gym, the grocery store, L's house... sometimes the very favorite things get lost. Or they get ripped.

In the past few months, something happened to Big Cats. I can't be sure what it was, and it doesn't really matter. But Henry would ask for it and I would promise to look a couple places for it; in the cars, in the basement where I keep things that need to be repaired, I would ask L about it. When we went to the zoo he would look for it in the gift shop, and they would never have any copies.

As so often happens, I put Henry off and off and off until I finally focused my attention on the situation and thought ok, the Big Cats book is gone, let's figure out how to get a new one. So I ordered a new copy from the Zoobooks website. It arrived around Henry's birthday.

Then, last Sunday, as we browsed in the gift shop, Henry found what he wanted to get: Big Cats. (Sure, now they have it in stock!)
But we already have that one Henry. At home. I know because I ordered it special for you. Why don't you pick out a different Zoobook that we don't already have?
We do not have it at home!

Yes, we do. Remember, it came in the mail? I know we already have this one at home.
It did not come in the mail! We do not have it at home!
You can tell by the picture how this argument was resolved. We bought another copy of Big Cats. And it's not a huge defeat in the bigger scheme of things, I know. It cost like $3, made him really happy, and now we'll have a spare for the next time we lose one copy.

But the part that bothers me--and the part that my boss couldn't really understand, although he is well-intentioned--is... if it were Thomas wanting a duplicate of something he already has, I would not give in so easily. Of course, the flip-side of that is that Thomas probably wouldn't ask for something that he already has. He would decide that it made sense to pick out something different.

My boss was asking "what would happen if you just told him no and refused to get it for him?" Well, I would probably have to drag him out of the gift shop crying, and then we'd have to talk all day about the Big Cats magazine. And what it really comes down to is--and this goes along with what I wrote a couple posts back about spoiling my kids--I don't want to tell him no. I get how important it is to him to have his papers or his books or his magazines. I get how comfortable those things make him feel. And I'm happy to help my child feel comfortable. But I wonder sometimes if I'm doing the right thing.

No, strike that. I don't wonder if I'm doing the right thing. But I wonder why the "right thing" for one child can be different from the "right thing" for another child.

My mom told me recently about how she made my one brother take piano lessons. And not the other brother. Basically she knew that my middle brother would have flat-out refused to cooperate. The younger brother, he didn't like it, but he could be persuaded. So he took piano lessons.

Time Magazine's cover story this week is about birth order- the stereotypes and truths associated with being the first-born, baby, or somewhere in the middle. Although I don't feel that many of the issues apply to our family, it is still fascinating food for thought, and is making me examine my choices- will Tommy have it easier or harder because of his older brother and sister? Will I give in to him more or less? Will I celebrate each new skill he learns, or will it be old hat for this mom of three?

Maybe the thing I have learned from the other two that Thomas will benefit from is: to suggest the thing that seems logical (don't buy a magazine that you already have), but to be open to the idea that we don't always have to be logical.

huh? you mean this thing can take videos?

So, like three years after everyone else started including videos on their blogs, I finally realized that it's as simple as pushing the "video" button on my digital camera, uploading the video along with my pictures, and posting it here. Can anyone say DUH?
I have really enjoyed seeing moving pictures of some of my little friends, and thought you might like to see Henry in action too.

The boys and I went to the zoo yesterday, arriving just in time to see the scuba diver in the coral reef tank. Henry looooves this, as you will see. Because of the location, the video is a little dark and there is a lot of background noise, but I hope you'll be able to get something out of it.

As I watch it, imagining myself as someone who doesn't know Henry, I notice all the autism stuff that we never notice anymore: the flapping and kicking, the humming, the hopping, and the repeating things over and over until I repeat them back to him.

We had a great day at the zoo. Tommy got his face painted again and Henry totally blew me away by saying that HE wanted to get his face painted too!! But by the time I ran 20 yards away to get out more cash and ran back, he had changed his mind. We will be going back in a couple weeks for "boo at the zoo", so he is toying with the idea of getting his face painted then.

good friday

I've read a few posts that made me happy today (Conor's doing great in another new school, Niksmom is reminding us all about perspective, and Fluffy is skipping) so I thought I would toss one of my own happy stories into the blogosphere. If I were ambitious I would declare this a weekly event, but we all know that I won't be organized enough to do it every Friday...

Wednesday night I said no to watching a DVD. I don't do this often, and Henry was perplexed. I was a little perplexed myself, after he asked me 20 more times and I kept having to repeat my negative answer. Bill and Thomas were hanging out together somewhere, and Henry and I were alone on the couch. I want to play a game he suddenly announced.

I want to play a game. Did he really say that? With no prompting?

I tried to sound casual- ok, what game do you want to play? He studied the game shelf and decided on animal bingo. He set it up and we commenced playing a game together. We took turns, we marked off our animals as they were called.

I have a raccoon. Do you have a raccoon mommy?

Oh man, I don't. The next animal is an ostrich. I have one of those.

Me too!
We did this back-and-forth talk and playing a game, just like a regular old mom and kid. What a priceless night! I was enjoying myself so much, I may not have noticed that I had bingo 2 different directions and let Henry call bingo first. Then we played a game of ocean bingo and he won that game too.

We didn't even do homework that night.

thanks for nothing, global warming

Monday was Thomas' first-ever field trip! To the pumpkin patch! I was so excited to go along! It was hot as hell!

Seriously, it was like 80 degrees when we got there at 9:30 in the morning. I was sweating from my stupid green tea latte and besides the bees were swarming around it, so I just dumped it out.

We didn't linger long over the donut and apple juice they included with our admission because the bees were so bad. But the kids had a lot of fun in this cute "scarecrow cave" maze that was just their size:

The barn full of hay bales and slides was fun too (except that I lost my sunglasses).

What would my grandpa say if he knew you could charge people money to let their kids climb around on bales of hay??!! Brilliant!

Another first for us was using the port-o-potty. I don't think I've ever taken Henry in one of those, so this was my first time realizing that a little boy can use a different area of the facility, if you get my meaning. Thomas was very entertained by this also.

I guess it's a bad year for pumpkins, so instead of actually riding out into the field to pick a pumpkin, we were just funneled into this fenced area and picked a pumpkin from a pile. Then we climbed into the wagon with our pumpkins to bake in the sun as we rode through the fields to the parking lot. As you can see, Thomas was not nearly as irritated by the heat as I was:

The trip was actually very fun. I didn't became really bitter until the last leg. We left our pumpkin in the car and returned to do all the fun stuff one more time. That's when I lost my son.

He went into that cute little maze again and I swear I was standing there watching for him the whole time. Other kids came and went and then I realized that I hadn't seen or heard from Thomas in a little while. I started calling his name louder and louder and the teachers asked what color shirt he was wearing... after maybe five minutes, one of the other moms said "there he is", and sure enough, here came Tommy, casually sauntering across the lawn.

(I didn't even notice until we were leaving that there was a pond on this property too. Thank God I didn't know that at the time I couldn't find him!)

If you'll look back at my Easter post, you'll see that the weather was unseasonable for that seasonal outing also, so I guess we're par for the course this year.
_________________

Today was the darkest of days for my youngest son, for it was the first day he was required to wear... wait for it... are you sitting down?... long pants. Noooooooo!

I'm being a smartass, but really, he is completely traumatized by this. That's why last year I let him wear shorts almost every day of the winter. We would wear pants for the trip to L's house and bring shorts along to change. But this year he has preschool and I can't have him changing his clothes back and forth all day long. He needs to learn that there are rules of propriety in our society.

But wow, I really feel terrible enforcing these rules sometimes! He threw a major tantrum this morning.

Side note: I was really proud of Henry at this point. He got up from the table where he was eating his breakfast and said "I want to go upstairs for a little while." I objected "But the bus will be here soon." Henry explained "I want to get away from Tommy." I told him that was a terrific way of handling a situation- rather than shoving/pinching/screaming at Tommy. Moving away from something that bothers you is a great solution. So we sat out front and waited for the school bus. But I could still hear the little brother crying and crying inside the house.
During the course of his crying fit, Tommy also told me that he doesn't want to go to school, doesn't like school, and is shy there. He tells me this all the time: that he is shy at school. Most people (the teachers, L, Bill) kind of roll their eyes at this (because this boy is definitely NOT shy. Not with adults anyway). But Tommy says it often enough that it worries me a bit. Today I tried to suggest to him that he could play with some other kids in his class, and he replied "no- I'm too shy! When the other kids talk to me I'm too shy because I don't know them!"

I can't be sure whether he was over-dramatizing this because he was already upset about the pants. But I'd appreciate tips from any of you who've been through this with a shy kid. Or a kid who hates to wear certain articles of clothing.

It seems like I don't really write about Henry enough anymore: how he is doing and what he is working on. As he grows older the issues have become not as huge and so I don't feel as driven to write about them. But of course, the issues are still there.

This year, for the first time, he is continuing in the same school with the same teacher and at least some of the same paras and therapists. So, although I'm not hearing much about some of his more troublesome behaviors (pinching, arguing/refusing to do work), I can't kid myself that they aren't still there. They just aren't news to these teachers anymore.

We had a teacher conference a couple weeks ago in which I tried to brag about how Henry had apologized to Thomas one day, unprompted. His teacher was like "yeeeaah... we actually try to get away from saying I'm sorry, because the kids will hurt one another and then just say they're sorry real fast and think everything's ok."

Oh, ok. Well, I still think it's a good thing at home. We can have different rules at home. They seem to have a lot more trouble with the pinching and scratching at school, with what they see as no provocation. Bill and I figure that there are just certain kids Henry has a beef with, and he'll grab them if he gets a chance. I don't mean to sound flippant about it, but there's really nothing we can do about it at home. It's just something they have to figure out in that environment.

One thing his teacher did ask us to work on at home, though, was addition facts. Ugh. I really dislike math. To this day I add on my fingers certain numbers that have just never registered in my tiny little blond brain. When you're pregnant and raising little kids, all you ever hear is read read read to your child. So that's what I've always done and it's been great. But now, my kid is 8 and can read just about everything by himself and, oh, it turns out there's some other stuff we're supposed to help him learn also. Dangit.

Henry's teacher asked us to work on flashcards at home. Because Henry has such a great memory, she assumed he would have no problem memorizing math problems. But I guess movie lines and movie release dates have a lot more meaning to Henry than 1+3 does, and the stuff is just not sticking.

About a week after she had asked us to do flashcards at home, Henry's teacher asked in the communication notebook how it was going. So that night I dug out the flashcards and started working with him. Ooops. Yes, teachers, I'm that mom. The one who has to be reminded a week later.

The first few times he counted on his fingers for every single flashcard. I tried a couple cards involving numbers higher than 5, and he was at a loss. Although I was a bit discouraged by this, now, a little more than a week later, he is getting much quicker and much more confident. So I think we will master this also. But we're only on addition. I am dreading multiplication!

We are still going strong with swimming lessons, horseback riding, and gymnastics. His confidence and strength are improving week by week.

The movies in heavy rotation lately are the Jungle Book and Cars. It's funny about Cars, because we bought it last November, when it first came out, but he never wanted to watch it until this summer. Henry got the soundtrack for his birthday, and loves to sing along with all the songs. He seems to really like "Our Town, illustrated by James Taylor" (In Henry's words!) So I'm hoping to turn him on to some other James Taylor tunes.

Henry also got the Cars game for his Leapster for his birthday. We got the Leapster for Christmas, in the hope that it would make some social situations easier (no one at a party thinks twice about the kid in the corner playing his video games), he'd enjoy it on car trips, and just to have him in the same room with us while playing games, rather than tucked away on the computer in the basement. He has never shown a ton of interest in the Leapster- the only game he really played much was a Dora animal-matching game.

He asked for the Dora game this weekend, and we couldn't find it (it probably went home with another cousin after vacation?), so he grudgingly half-looked at the Cars game as I tried to figure out how to play it. Of course, it quickly won him over and he played for hours this weekend, not even stopping to eat. Bill and I were laughing that we suggested playing a game as an alternative to watching movies, but then he got just as absorbed in the game, if not more so. Are we varying his interests, or narrowing them?

I could swear that I wrote this spring about the Return of the Jedi storytape. But I can't find the post. So- our library has a book on tape of Return of the Jedi that must be from 1985. Henry has borrowed it so many times, and each time another page falls out. It was out of circulation for several months with the notation "damaged" listed in the database. I searched for a copy to buy on the internet, but did not have any luck. Finally, one day when I again told Henry that it was "still damaged", he took matters into his own hands and asked the librarian!!!! She retrieved it from her back room and let him borrow it.

Fast forward a few months, and the boys and I walk into the library. All the librarians smile at us. Our first stop is the movie area, and as we're browsing in there, the librarian from the children's department taps me on the shoulder. "Aren't you the family that likes to borrow this?" she asks, holding up the Return of the Jedi book and tape. Oh, great, I think, she's going to make us pay for it because she's had to repair it so many times. I nod. "Well, I just can't keep it in circulation anymore" she explained, "it's too damaged. But I would just throw it away. Would you like to have it?"

So we brought the story tape home to keep!!!! If Henry hadn't asked the librarian, we would never have seen that treasured item again. Instead, we get to bring it home to live with us!

See? New month, new attitude.

A couple Saturdays ago I tried to jot down notes as Tommy and I were playing. His imagination just enchants me- I think I am especially amazed by it because Henry's never been much into imagining things. So the stuff Thomas comes up with just always surprises me. At the time I think I will remember it to tell someone about, but then it flits right out of my head again.

This day I think he was Fastman, and rode in a thundercar. Before leaving to fight the bad guys though, he had to stop to put on his boy makeup and put in his boy contacts. (Can you tell that he follows me around in the mornings?)

I was instructed to ride next to him in the pinkcar, and he used a Wendy's coupon as a swipecard to start our vehicles.

We soon moved outside to easier battle bad guys by running around in circles around the front yard and jumping over things that daddy had recently planted in the yard. They were actually powerful plants that give you certain powers if you touch them.

Later that day we went shopping and, while he wasn't able to decide on a Halloween costume, (that's going to be a really tough one this year. We've already returned one Spiderman costume after the love was gone) he did get one of those little-kid backpacks that also have a pull-handle and wheels. He modeled that thing all over the store: see? You can put it on your back like this, and see? you can pull it on wheels like this. Wait mommy, I want to put my new jammies in my new backpack. Ooooh mommy, look at the Halloween decorations...

Here he has gathered all his Pooh buddies to watch a Winnie the Pooh video. (This is the couch in our basement- much as I would secretly like to, I have not hung a Harry Potter poster up on the main floor of our house.) Also included in the group are the ghost that makes spooky sounds (also found shopping that day) and a garage-sale St. Bernard dog. The dog makes a great superhero because he can carry all kinds of imaginary tools/weapons in the barrel around his neck.

If you're getting the impression that I spoil this kid- buying him unnecessary Halloween stuffed ghosts and backpacks-on-wheels, well, you're right. I do spoil him. I have realized that recently, as every day when I pick him up he asks "did you get me anything today?" It's pretty wrong that at least once a week I say "yes, I did! Some new socks, a Batman flashlight, a Winnie the Pooh video..."

I think I got into this habit with Henry, because his interests are so specific, and he is so hard to please, yet easy to please. I pick up Disney books whenever I find them at the consignment shop, or randomly order Star Wars coloring books for him on the internet to replace the ones that he can't find anymore and can't stop asking about.

But Henry has never seemed "spoiled" by it- he sometimes will ask if I got him something at the store, but I guess the difference is that he doesn't cry when I tell him I didn't get him anything.

So, I am trying to be more conscious of this and if I do pick something up for either boy, think about saving it for a later occasion.

Last night was just such an occasion- Henry's aunt had pre-ordered the Jungle Book DVD for him for his birthday. Today, October 2, is the release date, and of course we have it marked on our calendar. Well, it turns out that when you pre-order from Disney, you receive the DVD even before it is in the stores!!! Who knew? So it arrived yesterday, and Henry was over the moon about it!

It seemed like a good time to pull out the Ninja Turtle pajamas that I had picked up for Tommy last week, so he had something to be excited about also. Last night was a good night at our house!

And finally, relevant to none of this, here is a picture of the delicious salad I made today at Wild Oats:

I thought it looked so colorful and fresh that I would take a photo- I know, I'm weird. This salad cost enough money, I am hoping to make it last a couple days, and maybe I'll get this photo framed :-)

first day of preschool and I'm not gonna cry

Once the kids she cares for are 3, if their parents are interested, Thomas' sitter takes them to the neighborhood preschool. So the younger kids are used to riding along to drop off/pick up the older kids, and are really psyched for preschool by the time they are old enough to go. 3-year-olds go for 2 hours in the morning, 3 days a week. When you're 4 you go 4 days a week.

I didn't figure this would be a huge transition for any of us, considering that Tommy is familiar with the place, he is already used to being away from his parents during the day, and I wouldn't have to be dropping him off and be tortured if he happened to cry. But I do feel a bit strange to be missing out on this- like I'm missing his first smile, first steps, or first black eye (oh wait, I did miss that.)

We attended an "orientation" earlier this week- basically a way for the kids to get familiar with their classroom and for parents to ask a bunch of dumb questions that had already been answered in the letters the school has sent home. (Aren't I such a snob? And I wonder why I don't have more friends.) Tommy worried about what kind of toys they would have in his classroom, and my grasping-at-straws response of "blocks" did not put his mind at ease. (I was informed that "blocks are not toys.")

So I breathed a sigh of relief when he discovered a Batmobile in one of the toy bins! School would be ok after all.

That day I brought my camera, but the batteries were dead. (Why does that always happen?!) So this morning we stopped to snap a couple pictures before I dropped him off at L's house. Tommy does not seem to be worried about school, except to say that "I might be shy." I have tried to reassure him that it's perfectly fine to be shy in a new situation. And when you select as stylish an outfit as my boy did for the first day, you won't be lonely for long!

This morning I had to fill out this long questionnaire, answering questions about my child's fears, likes, dislikes, allergies, and other noteworthy info about his quirks. It took me no time at all. Most moms probably feel this way with their second child, but especially because of all his older brother's special needs, transitions like this with Tommy seem to be so much more manageable and less emotional.

And yes, we do own a hairbrush. Just didn't use it today. If I know L, she got him cleaned up before school. It takes a village, as they say...

the weekend of (mostly) thwarted expectations

The weekend started off well. Thomas mixed up a healthy batch of "dirt soup" Friday night.

Kate was in for the evening, due to an infraction the previous weekend, and we had a pretty good chat. This semester she is helping in a first-grade class every afternoon, and Friday night she told me all about the kids and the things she's been doing with them and how some of them like to hug her and hang on her... I guess there is a boy in the class who is tube-fed and wears a backpack that carries his bag of food (Kate couldn't remember what the name of his condition is), and another boy with Tourrettes. This is the same teacher that Henry was mainstreamed with last year, so I asked if Mrs. C gets all the special needs kids. But Kate said no-there are some in other classes. I get so caught up in my own little "special needs" world that I am surprised to hear there are so many others in the same school district!

Saturday was the big day for Henry and Daddy. You might remember that back in the spring we tried to go to our college football team's open scrimmage... and it was a disaster. Every other idiot (ooops, I mean fan) in town was trying to take their kids to the stadium for $5, and we couldn't find a seat. That day we decided to get tickets to a game this fall so that Henry could go and have a better experience.

Once you understand what happened in the spring, you'll see why Saturday went the way it did: kickoff was at noon. Bill and Henry got there around 11, allowing enough time to walk around and check out the crowd. But Henry was single-minded. He had a ticket this time and he had a seat, and by God he was going to sit in that seat and not move from it:

Here he is talking to me on the phone, sitting in the stadium an hour before kickoff.

I think all the pre-game stuff went ok, and the pre-game band show was the main thing Henry wanted to see anyway. Then it started to rain. And wet clothes are a sensation that Henry is very adverse to. So once they got rained on and he wanted to take off his clothes, it was time to call it a day. Our team hadn't even scored yet (they went on to win, 20-2.)

Bill knew, going to this experiment, that it might not last long. And he has learned from years of experience with Henry how to handle occasions like this. So although he was disappointed to leave without Henry experiencing a touchdown, he wisely just went with the tide. Henry will remember it as a really special and exciting experience, and Bill was able to finish watching the game at a bar down the street, so all's well that ends well.

Tommy had been asking to go to the zoo, and I was looking forward to going on Saturday, just me and him- something special while daddy and Henry were doing something special. Thomas wanted to sleep a little extra Saturday (clue #1), then when he got up, he said "I have a yucky cough like M------". A boy at L's house had developed a barking cough last week, and Tommy had indeed caught it from him.

He still wanted to go to the zoo, so we did. Now usually Henry is our tour guide and drill sergeant: dictating which animals we will see, and how long we will look at them. Either because he was sick, or because he is used to his big brother being the boss, Tommy had no real direction to offer at the zoo. He didn't seem to care what we looked at. He did get to sit on all the photo-op animal statues that we usually blow past, and walk on a lot of low walls. But the reptiles and the coral reef were the only sights that he really requested.

When we returned home from the zoo and gathered on the couch to catch up with Kate and Henry, Thomas rolled his face over between 2 cushions and vomited. His fever went up to 102+ and his cough and sore throat worsened.

So the rest of the weekend was spent worrying and comforting and taking his temperature and trying different medications. We're seeing the doctor this afternoon, but of course his fever seems to be gone today. His voice, though, is totally shot! He can only whisper. It's very odd to have my usual chatterbox be so silent.

His first day of preschool is Friday, so hopefully he'll be back to normal by then. Tune in next weekend for a full report.

Henry at 8 years

This picture is very Henry. He is smirking, kicking his legs, and turning his head side to side, thinking of something funny.

This year his birthday fell on the same day as the football team's season opener. The game was not televised, except on a special network, so Bill and Kate went to watch it at a sports bar and the boys and I went to lunch at McDonalds. (They are wearing their new football jerseys.)

Henry's lovely bus driver gave him a gift card to Blockbuster, which just shows how well she knows Henry, because it was a perfect gift for him! So our fun day started with a Crumbleberry Coffee Cake from Starbucks and included a stop at Blockbuster. Later that evening we went to see Ratatoille.

I thought the movie was cute, if an odd premise for a children's movie. But Henry seemed to love it! He laughed and squealed and kicked his legs non-stop. Bill and I had to take turns putting him on our laps and turning him sideways, so he wouldn't kick the seat in front of him.

On Sunday Grandma and Grandpa came to visit (my mom's birthday was Monday). We spent a bit of the afternoon watching Tommy play outside, while Bill cooked on the grill. When I went in to check on Henry (because of course he had no interest in playing outside), here is what I found:

I asked him what this teetering tower of papers was, and he replied proudly "I matched all the prints with the movies".

These are computer printouts of movie webpages, matched with the corresponding DVD. Bill and I think he may have a career as a librarian, except that he will never want anyone to remove anything from his library!

Yesterday the birthday fun continued. Henry had his annual checkup with the pediatrician, as well as his annual checkup with the eye doctor. But in between, we stopped at the bookstore and Target, and spent some birthday money. You can guess what he chose: more books, DVDs and audio books.

That reminds me of something new Henry is doing: he has learned how to turn the captions on when he watches a DVD. I think this is a brilliant way to further develop his reading skills. It also makes watching a movie feel a little more active- he's working his brain a bit.

The doctors appointments, along with the beginning of the school year, have made me take stock in how far Henry has come. I used to dread visits to the pediatrician. My friend Eileen has just described this much better than I can- the feeling that you are betraying your child by holding him down for the doctor's examination. (I'm not linking to her blog because it is open to invited readers only.)

This time, on the way to the doctor's office, we talked about what the doctor would do. I told Henry that Dr. T might ask him about what he is learning in school, and what other things he has been doing. So, when Dr. T came in and greeted Henry, Henry pointed at me and said "she wants to tell you what I have been doing in school." We both laughed at that- either my message had been misunderstood, or Henry just didn't feel up to the challenge.

Henry cringed when the doctor looked in his ears, but I didn't need to get out of my seat to hold on to him as in the past. Henry is in the 15th percentile, and the doctor and I laughed about that too- Henry has never moved past the 15th percentile.

Henry and I told him about school, gymnastics, horseback riding, and swimming. I explained how Henry couldn't tolerate gymnastics a year earlier, but now responded so well to it.

"Well, he's doing great" summarized Dr. T. I paused and then asked "you mean physically?" "Just in every way" he said. "This visit has gone a lot differently than they used to go, and it sounds like you've got him plugged in to some good programs."

Yeah. Maybe that's why I haven't had as much to write about lately: it's not that Henry isn't autistic anymore, it's just that we are all on a comfortable path now, and (mostly) moving forward. He might not be growing up like a typical 8-year-old, but he is growing up.

8 years ago

This photo is for Xia. Getting ready for Henry's birthday and reading Xia's blog got me thinking about the summer I was pregnant with my first son.

Please note my belly button. I mean, how can you miss it? I actually put a band-aid over it to try to disguise it, but I think that made it more prominent than ever.

I remember being so hot that day! This was actually the second family wedding we attended in August 1999. I was in the other one. It was hot that day too.

Also, before anyone comments on the scrapbook, a disclaimer: I do not scrapbook. My mother does. She made little ones like this for both boys, and all I had to do was slap the photos in. I don't think Tommy's are actually GLUED in yet- just inserted into the correct pages. Maybe by the time he's 8...

This morning Henry woke up at 4:45!! He was so excited to look at the Star Wars books he borrowed from the library. He just got his own library card a couple weeks ago, and had reserved a book that he wanted. Yesterday he and Daddy went to pick it up, and Henry is buzzing with the excitement of it.

first day of school 2007 and keeping my head above water

(Holding up 2 fingers to show he's in 2nd grade)

Um, yeah. The first day of school was a week ago. I'm not sure what my problem is- I just haven't felt moved to write much lately. Or even read much in the blog world. I guess we just need a break from our habits once in awhile- whatever those habits may be.

The first day went great for both kids, as have all the days since. Kate seems engaged and happy, and Henry has been getting good reports in the communication notebook. He has started saying "I don't want to go to school", which troubles me, even though I know it is normal. They are making him do work, which he didn't have to do at summer camp. So it's natural that he would have second thoughts about second grade (good one, eh?)

He doesn't put up a fight when it's time to get on the bus, which adds to my conviction that his protests aren't really sincere. But last night, as we watched Chicken Little before bath time, he chanted it over and over: I don't want to go to school I don't like going to school I don't like school I don't want to go to school. It's just so tiring to keep responding positively. And he does want a response- he expects me to say the right thing to comfort him. Sigh. I'm sure this will pass, but it is tiring.

My youngest son is being tiring in his own way. Doing a lot of whining and crying; and asking for a lot of things lately: when I pick him up from L's house, he'll ask "do you have a toy in the car? But I wanted a new toooooy! My toys are booooring!" Yeah- he's being quite a brat. Also tiring. I wonder if he's getting ready to grow or something because he's being very needy right now. He's waking up more at night and, as I mentioned before, crying each night when it's time to put on his pullup.

Henry's teacher sent a list of questions for him to answer before school started (I wanted to share it here but didn't get around to it). The questions were along the lines of "when I'm by myself I like to ____" "when I'm with my parents I like to ____", (I coached his answers a little bit so they weren't all watch a DVD). For the question "something I don't like is ____" Henry answered Tommy's crying voice. I don't like Tommy's crying voice. I thought this was a pretty telling response, considering there are so many other things Henry doesn't like! This must be the one that bothers him the most.

I don't want to act like we need to walk on eggshells around Henry, but I have been telling Tommy that it really bothers his brother when he cries, so please don't do it.

I guess it will just take us all a little while to get used to the new routine. Something still feels a little off right now, although the anxious dreams have gone away. I've just been feeling extra sensitive lately- I'll read a troubling news story and then it takes me days to shake it. It's the 10th anniversary of Princess Diana's death, and September 11th will be on a Tuesday again. (I remember that 9-11-01 was a Tuesday because we have a recurring meeting on the second Tuesday of every month...)

OK, enough of the moping. Here's some good news: I've always been too cheap to join a gym, but I finally broke down and joined the rec center here where I work. I just can't jog outside when it's 100 degrees, and I don't want the weather to be an excuse to not exercise at all. So I'm trying to do that regularly again, and that's probably helping with the sleep too. I'm also getting used to listening to CDs again, now that we have a CD player in the car.

I feel like I'm slowly coming back to the real world. Raising little kids (and teenagers) is like treading water in the ocean. Now that they're a little older maybe I can climb up on a raft, take a break, and drink a gin and tonic...

Black eye, day 13. Just so you know that it's almost gone. Also, we got a cool new ninja turtle.

(More pictures from the beach vacation)

I am overdue for a post, and have started a couple different times, but can't seem to figure out what to say. I started one post that said "I have a general good feeling hanging over me right now" and then the next day I looked at it and thought "no I don't- what was I talking about?"

Things are good right now- nothing is wrong or anything. But I have this vague sense of unease. I don't usually remember my dreams, but I have been remembering them for the past couple of weeks, and they are all like this: I realize that I am supposed to be at the airport in half an hour, but it takes half an hour to get there and I still have to pack, and there is a lot of important stuff that I can't forget to pack, and why didn't I pack for this trip sooner? And even though there's no chance in hell that I'll make that plane, I still keep fumbling around in my dream, trying to pack.

Or: I'm babysitting someone's baby, and I don't remember how to pick a baby up, except that I've raised 2 of my own, but now I don't remember what to do, and I feel bad because I offered to babysit for this friend and now I'm going to drop her baby or something.

I suppose I must be anxious about school starting. But there's no reason to be worried about Henry. The transition this year should be smooth as silk (I know, famous last words). But he'll have the same main teacher, be in the same classroom, have the same bus driver, be on the same schedule. Just like last year.

I am also anxious, but in a good way, about Henry's birthday. It always falls on Labor Day weekend and it's so fun to plan a cookout or trip to the zoo. It's a bit disappointing that Henry doesn't want to have the usual 8-year-old party, but it's so fun to think of all the outings he would enjoy that the disappointment disappears before it even fully forms.

Hmmm, what happened last week...

Thursday night we visited the elementary/middle/high school complex, to pick up Kate's schedule and books and to buy Henry's school supplies. It's easier to feel like we are really part of the school community, now that he is attending school in our district. But we still don't quite fit. His teacher sent him a cute letter ("We will have 6 boys in our class this year. I will need your help to teach them the rules and show them around the school...") and included a supply list. I assumed it was the 2nd grade supply list, but I was wrong. I guess it is the STACK classroom supply list. The woman from the PTO who was helping me couldn't have been nicer- she scampered around gathering supplies, and was very apologetic that she had never seen this list before. "There are only 6 kids in his class," I explained, "and most of them don't live in the district, so they probably wouldn't come to the PTO school supply sale."

I bought Henry a t-shirt with the name of his school on it (now that we're at the same school for the second year, I am willing to commit.) Henry's classroom door was open, so he went in and looked around. It was great to see how excited he was to look at everything. He spotted a couple of the new boys' desks, and seemed very comforted to come across a picture schedule.

He had a great horseback riding lesson that night- another child was having a lesson also, so there were times when the instructor would be working with the other child, and Henry would just be hanging out, sitting on T, talking to T. T would kind of wander around a bit and Henry seemed very comfortable, just on his own with the horse, with no one else assisting. They even TROTTED for the first time! (The instructor was right there for that part!) Henry grinned from ear to ear.

His instructor encouraged the kids to give one another "feedback". So Henry shouted "good trotting Anna!" over and over. Very cute. Tommy got to ride briefly also. I had never intended to raise equestrian children, but it seems like Thomas might end up taking classes too.

It just goes to show, you never know what opportunities a "disability" might bring to the whole family.

fun at the fair and new behaviors

Friday was our annual trip to the state fair. Me, the boys, my mom and dad, and this time one of my brothers was able to come along also.

We had a great time, as usual, and each year is a little bit different. The first couple years it was just me and Henry, and we walked back and forth, back and forth between the animal barns. (Because whatever animal we were looking at Henry wanted to see a different one. Until we got there, and then he wanted to go back to the other.)

But each year we have added a guest to our little party (Tommy, Grandma, Grandpa, Uncle Christian), and each year we seem to stay a little longer and see one new thing. This year, the new thing was this:

We rode the "sky glide." This was fun and the boys enjoyed it, but I was pretty freaked out that there was nothing strapping us in to this thing. There was one of those bars that comes down over your head, but any child or even a small adult could slide right under that bar and go crashing to the ground below. Dad and Henry were in the car behind us. I turned around once to take their picture and then worried that dad wasn't holding on to Henry. I guess dad had the same thought, because when I turned around again, he was. Phew.

We also saw some piglets, bought some cheap plastic swords and had sword fights, and watched a lot of the horse competitions. With his new interest in horses, I think Henry would have sat in that arena all day long, watching them and listening to the goofy organ music accompaniment.

I will have to post again in a couple days after I get some photos from mom and dad. Most of the ones I took yesterday were from the sky glide.

_________

Henry has been showing some signs of anxiety lately:

-He's been chewing on his shirt a lot. This is something he's never done before, although he did go through a phase around age 3 where he would chew/suck on his comforter- yuck. When this started, I thought maybe he had a loose tooth or something else strange going on in his mouth. That may have been at the beginning, but now I think it is just an oral habit that will be hard to break.

-He has been asking to sleep in our bed. This is not something Henry has EVER done before. He and Tommy share a room, and when Tommy was a baby and would cry at bedtime, I would sometimes put Henry down in my bed and then move him later. But now he is asking to sleep in our bed every night, and sometimes coming in in the middle of the night (again, NEVER done previously). I have tried asking him why, and he says "I don't like my bed." Tommy has been arguing about wearing his pullup at night, so maybe Henry wants to avoid that conflict...

-Henry has been requesting to watch DVDs (not unusual at all!) But he only watches the previews and the first 15 minutes or so, and then asks to put in a different movie (after the rest of us are interested in this first one!)

We are stumped by these new behaviors, except to wonder if he is feeling excited/anxious about school starting again. His teacher and school will be the same, and we have talked quite a bit about school and he doesn't seem apprehensive at all...

Any thoughts about any of these?