fantasy

I walked into the boys' bedroom yesterday morning to wake them up, and Thomas startled me by saying plaintively "I just wish the Ninja Turtles could be real." Perhaps he was dreaming about the Ninja Turtles and woke up with that thought on his mind- lying there in the dark, half awake, half asleep.

Moments like this often catch in my heart. Here's something I don't like about being a mom, a parent, a grown-up: I don't like being the voice of reason all the time; the dream-crusher. I remember how that felt as a child; to so love the book you were reading or the movie you were watching that it pained you to acknowledge that it wasn't real- that E.T wasn't hiding in your closet, your car couldn't really fly, or you wouldn't uncover a mystery if you took enough notes in your spy notebook.

I know that L has had to break the news to Tommy that he is not a superhero and cannot fly. I know she had to tell him this for his own safety. But yesterday morning, in the pre-dawn dark of my sons' room, I just said "who knows? Maybe they are real and we just have never seen them." And I felt like a 4-year-old all over again.